On the morning dog walk a lightbulb finally went off in my head. I have spent the past four years struggling to gain control of everything that was getting away from me. This has left me in a terrible place. The epiphany has led me to brain dump for the first time in a long time.

We have all had a plethora of things inflicted on us since March 2020, and these events don’t ever seem to slow down. But, I have also never come to terms with what has taken place to me. Instead, I drowned myself in social media feeds to feel like I had something to control. I have spent years being misguided by the thought I could post through it.
If the events refuse to stop, I will have to do so instead.
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